Predicament!

I’ve had quite a lot of people commenting on my love for reality TV lately, because I’m like, quite an opinionated person and my views usually revolve around literature, art, films and places I’ve travelled to. So it shocks people that I’m addicted to Big Brother because it’s generally associated with “freaks” and sad people. I totally disagree though. They pick the extreme people to go into the BB house, but that doesn’t make them freaks, it just makes them the minority. There’s nothing wrong with that. Don’t get me wrong, the idea of instant fame does appeal to me (I’m not saying it’s right and I’m not saying I’m right) and I think it’s hilarious watching the friction between all the people. But I also find it genuinely interesting to see how people that are so different interact with one another. I also find it interesting to see how their behaviour changes over the weeks and to see how they portray themselves in the VT and how this compares to how they actually are. It shows which aspects of their personality they’re proud of and which aspects they’re not proud of.

I’m not sure if it’s true or not but I’ve heard rumours that next year is the last series of Big Brother. I’m in absolute split minds about whether to apply or not. I REALLY want to because I literally have wanted to be on BB since I was 11. But here’s the deal. If I don’t get in it’s fine because I’d just continue applying to uni and the like. If I do get in, there’s a chance that it would overlap my A levels. Which might not be so bad if I went on to win it but if I lasted like two weeks and missed my exams, that would be TERRIBLE. Like, I don’t know how I’d get myself out of that. But if I don’t apply then I might regret it forever. Ideally, it will go on for another few years so that I can apply the year I finish uni. Arrrgghhh, I know this will sound trivial, pathetic, sad, ridiculous and just WTFISTHISGIRLON to most people, but I’m really stressing over this!

I need to get a life.