25 facts about me, revisited

1. I worry about what people think of me, constantly.
2. I never cared about how skinny I should be until I met certain people. I hate them for dragging me into all that shit.
3. Deep down, I don't actually care about how skinny I should be; I don't actually think I'm as fat as I make out I think I am.
4. I'm hiding something from myself at the moment. It's there in my head and I'm trying to convince myself it's not there.
5. I know that one of my best friends doesn't like me as much as I like him and I pretend that it's his loss but really I know it's mine.
6. I have this other best friend and sometimes I seriously question why I'm friends with her. A lot of the time I think she's not as great as so many people seem to think she is.
7. My mum clearly thinks that I tell her a lot and that she knows me really well. She actually doesn't know me at all and I barely tell her anything.
8. Watching Britain's Got Talent makes me upset because everyone always seems so proud and I know I don't and never will have the talent or ability to make anyone proud to that extent.
9. Thanks to some people, I once hit absolute rock bottom. Thanks to them, I did stupid things. The sort of things I would have an absolute FIT over if I found out my friends had done them.
10. I miss one of my best friends more than I'll ever be able to put into words and I wish I had made the most of him more. Even though he's still there, he's not there anymore.
11. I'm a hypocrite.
12. I'm looking forward to university because when I'm not living in the area and people don't see me as often, I'm hoping they'll feel really guilty and regretful for all the times they've knowingly upset and angered me.
13. During my GCSE's, I kidded myself into believing that I'd done enough revision.
14. I'm cynical because I'm jealous.
15. Sometimes I hate the fact that I am a lucky person because it makes me feel guilty when I complain about things.
16. I'm dreading my cats dying.
17. People who claim to have been "heartbroken" anger me because they act like it's the end of the world when their problems are absolutely trivial in the grander scheme of things. Plus, it's a stupid metaphor.
18. I hate the fact that I used to be exceptionally clever and now I'm only just above averagely clever.
19. I treat people younger than me the same way that I treat people the same age as me. This is because from the age of about eight I hated how patronising teenagers and adults were towards me. Similarly, I still feel the same in my head as I did back then so I see now reason why they should feel any differently as to how I do now.
20. I so badly want to be famous.
21. I went through a phase when I'd look at photos of Emma Watson and then cry over them because I so desperately wanted to be her.
22. I'm reluctant to introduce people I know to one of my friends because I'm always scared they'll like her more than they like me.
23. There's nothing in my past that I'd go back and change, even if I could.
24. If I have a lot of money when I'm older, I'm going to spend it on travelling around the world, charities and plastic surgery.
25. I feel really happy and proud of myself when people trust me with their secrets.