It's hardly a secret to everyone that ever since November 17th 2008 I have been set on going to Warwick Uni to do Theatre and Performance Studies.
I knew that the open day is on May 9th for months and have been looking forward to it for ages. The booking form opened on Monday. This week has been extremely hectic for me as I have had all in all over 12 hours of drama rehearsals for my AS and that along with my parents being busy at different times we haven't all been in the house at the same time, unoccupied for long enough to discuss and book times and sessions for the open day. But this evening we're all here and we're all free. But low and fucking behold, the sessions I wanted to visit are all booked up.
So I start crying and my parents ask what's wrong so I tell them and all I get from them is a go had at me because apparently I procrastinate and don't have my priorities right. I really resent the fact that they are saying this to me because yes, I procrastinate but COME ON. They out of everyone know how badly I want to go to Warwick so how can they actually think that I'd rather go on fucking Facebook than fill out the form? I thought they knew how much it means to me. It's fine for them to tell ME I've been busy doing other stuff, but they can hardly say that they haven't been doing other stuff too. They're the ones that wanted to come with me so of course I had to wait till we were all in the same place at the same time till I could book it.
And even if I did have the chance to book sooner and get my place, do they really think telling me off for crying about it is the way to deal with it? They tell me that I'm immature ("You've run out of time to act like a child" to quote my dad) and that I'm being pathetic, but how is that going to help? They know how much I was looking forward to going, they know that this was what was motivating me and what I had my hopes set on. They can clearly see how gutted I am about this and they still persist at shouting at me for my reaction. What do they want me to do? Laugh it off and say I'm fine with waiting till September?
I needed this visit. This visit was what I needed as my last push to ace my exams. I'm not saying not going will stop me trying to ace them because it definitely won't. But everyone knows what it's like when you get that spur of motivation, and that's what I was really hoping for and looking forward to.
Maybe I was too disorganised, maybe I did go about it all wrong. But I really do not think that them shouting at me whilst I'm crying my eyes out is going to help the situation.
1 comment:
why don't you try contacting the uni and saying that you can't make the open day because the courses you want to see are full and then ask them if there is any other days in which you and your family can go and look round...most uni's will let you.
Good luck with uni and stuff, i'm in the same year as you so i'm starting to look at uni's and stuff now too...it's all very scary!
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