I'm suitably stressed out.

Year 13 is pretty ridiculous in terms of workload. The teachers seem to feel the need to pile homework upon us every time we see them. I wouldn't be surprised if I passed one in the corridor and they gave me 200 pages of extra reading to do. Despite this, I'm feeling okay about how my last ever year of school (HALLELUJAH) is going so far. I'm especially proud of a couple of pieces of work I've done so far which is a good feeling. The free periods are keeping me sane.

To make the stress worse, I'm not dealing with the whole all my friends in the year above going thing that well. I haven't really talked to people about it because I don't know how to express it. But it's just really hard knowing that I won't bump into them in the dinner queue or even around town any more.

And I've been feeling ill lately too. Though I think that is just major over-tiredness because I'm finding it hard to get back into early nights and early mornings rather than going to bed at 3am and waking up at 1pm.

But I'm alive.

I deleted my Twitter page the other day for several reasons. The main one however was because the majority of the people I was following were either way too ignorant/boring/rude/racist/stupid for me to want to read what they had to say on a regular basis. I could have just deleted aforementioned people, but that would have left me with about 4 who I actually wanted to read. So I contemplated leaving Twitter for a while and then my dad got an account. That was my cue. I do feel like contact with a few people has been cut off, because there are some people who I only really communicated with through Twitter. I think I might get it again next year, mainly coz by then I will have forgotten about how much it pissed me off.

I've hit just over 900 subscribers on YT, which is too bizarre for me to even try to get my head round. Eliot pointed out to me yesterday that soon it would be 4 digits. That is just astonishing.

I really miss Eliot because throughout the part of the summer that I was in England, I saw him pretty much every few days. Haven't seen him for a while now which is not very nice. Ditto Joe. I really miss him too.

Tomorrow I'm going to see Calendar Girls at the West End with my mum and nana. It's my birthday present to my mum. Her birthday was in May but we wanted good seats and by waiting till tomorrow we were able to get 2nd row from the front. It's nice that I'm going with my mum and nana because when the film of Calendar Girls came out when I was like, 11, us three went to see it together. 7 years on, nowt has changed.

Saturday is Rosh Hashanah (Jewish New Year) which I am very excited about coz Joe is spending it with me. He's not Jewish but he wanted to be there and I wanted him there so that should be nice.

Next major thing coming up though is GREEN DAY. I'm seeing them on October 23rd at their first London gig in 4 years. This means ridiculous amounts to me because I've waited a quarter of my life for this.

More soon (:

xx